Spared Again

I've been spared again. I sat in stunned silence as one, two, three, four, five, SIX team members were handed their walking papers today. The company said they were laying off 17% of their work force but my team bled 32%. I sat with headphones on ready for the call from my manager telling me I had been given a pink slip. Fortunately it didn't come. The names on the list of people losing their jobs shocked me; from the mail lady to vice presidents - no one was safe this time around. This is the fifth time I've gone through layoffs; it is killing me. And it isn't over - layoffs will continue all week. I think they are going team-by-team; if so, my team has already been slaughtered. Totally shocked.